明知故犯

为何要落泪，落泪仍要一个面对
无谓的负累，怎么不忍失去
其实我不怪谁，在你掌心里
偏偏我要孤单寄居

为何要恐惧，寂寞时欠一个伴侣
甜蜜中受罪，怎么讲都不对
无论你想爱谁，在你掌握里
我热情随时在手里

谁也知夜夜与她那内情
可惜我瞎了眼睛
真相那需说明
而我却哼不出半声

谁也知夜夜与她那内情
甘心去做你布景
得到你的爱情
还要再得到你任性

一切原是注定
因我跟你都任性


Oh my god...keep repeat this song whole day..
this song i heard when i secondary school..
one of my favourite song..
how come i never know Nicole Cheong and Shawn Yue never sang before..

my heart f*cking pain when listen this song..
it's reminds me those memories between us..
i wondering why my heart uncomfortable when thinking of you..
maybe those memories you gave are meaningful and unforgettable for me..
sigh..



-The End-

自私的武器

你一直在做你喜欢的事情

而我却是只做你喜欢的事情

努力的配合，努力的维持

最后我只会关心你，却没有人关心我

当我已经没有东西可以再付出的时候

就是因为我累了

而自私就是，把彼此越推越远的武器

-The End-

不再期盼

我们可以再靠近一点吗？

我们可以再坦白一点吗？

为何我总是觉得我们好像有着一段的距离？

为何我总是欠缺一份对我们感情的安全感？

我真的很害怕，你懂吗？

到底是那里出错了？

时间出错了？还是我们之间出错了？

尝试加快脚步想与你配合

却换来想休息的念头

一次又一次的失望

换来一次又一次的受伤

也许，我不该对你抱着任何的期盼

-The End-

Promise You Gave

sleep around 10something then wake up around 4am..
OMG..
am i weirdo???i wonder about it..
i love my blog's background music..
i thinking of you when i listen it..
hope you'll like it..
Dinosaur..
i miss you right now..
seriously..i miss you badly..
i'm glad that i still with you..
today, i'm happy that you share many thing with me..
all the thing are past already..
you had me now..
i'll accompany you until the day your heart are no longer with me..
the promise you gave..it's plant in my heart..
thank for your promise..
a bit late but better don't have..
it's let me stand strong for you again..
i'll try my best to give all i can..
thank for you told me that you found me and glad can be with me..
it's fated..it's our destiny..
hehe..
I Love You..





-The End-

不甘心不放手

不再执著于昨天的痴狂
我的心像是台北的街头
不知该往哪儿走

你的心像闪烁的霓虹
叫人迷恋却也迷惑
我没有把握

谁在怂恿夜的脆弱
抚平的伤又隐隐作痛

是谁说过不再回头
还是让你淹没了我
还是让你将我淹没

想放弃却不能甘心放手
留你在梦中却苦痛了我
等著伤心不如学会承受
反正你不会是我的

想放弃却不能甘心放手
留你在梦中 却苦痛了我
等你想起不如先忘记你
反正离开你的人是我


*one of my favorite song..
my heart are pain when hear everytime..
sigh..
please appreciate what we have now..
hold it tight if you love it..


-The End-

2D 1N In Setapak Ria

most delicious breakfast

our dinner

yummy yummy

yesterday morning keep nagging by my mummy..
i know what you worry about..
don't worry ya..I'm adult already..
after that, wait for Alex come and fetch me go my dinosaur's house...
very happy nia..
can sleep with my dinosaur..
yeah yeah..
facebook-ing and drama-ing while i'm waiting for him come back from college..
lunch at BW when he back from college..
order a that fried rice and prawn fried rice..
but i can't finish the rice..
so we 'da bao'..haha..
after that, we back home and sleep..
sleep until 6something then i wake up and continue my drama-E.U..
hehe..my dinosaur still sleeping like a baby..
he woke up around 7something..
after that, we prepare ourselves and off to TBR's nasi lemak..
we talk about our problem..
but your response make me feel you're not serious in our relationship..
back home after finish our dinner..
suddenly, pinky call me go yam cha..
then i said 'ON' due to i have nothing to do..
my dinosaur fetch me go and find him..
then he go find his friend's chloe..
4 of us keep chating..
how come we have a lots of topic..
but, i enjoy it..
i'm glad that i have all of u..
dear, thank for your support and encourage..
don't worry ya..
i know what i'm doing now..
back home around 1am something..
he try to heat some hot water for me bathing due to cold weather..
it's warm nia..
thank dinosaur..
after bathing, then we prepare for sleep..
we chat a lots before we sleep..
i like this feel very much..
darling, love me then prove it to me..
don't use your mouth to love me..
i wan action..do something..
hug by him whole night..
i love this feeling very much..
i will remember this feeling..
i'm appreaciate it very much..
wake up around 10something due to his alarm keep ringing..
he fried the rice for me..
walao..this is the most delicious breakfast that i ever eat..
i love it very much..thank ya..
after that, he off to college and i stay at home continue drama-ing..
2pm have my lunch with fanny dear, pinky dear, yu bin honey and jimmy..
after that, attend Mr.Julius's class at 4pm..
our last tutorial..
don't know why i feel sleepy with his class..
my eye are lose control..wanna close..
haiz..
5pm something back home..fetch by my honey, yu bin..
thank ya..
after that, we keep chit chat on the bed..
wohoo~~
enjoy it very much..
while we chating, he suddenly said that he decide to treat me nicely..
walao..we almost 5month..
now you only say want to treat me nicely..
i really nothing can say already..
haiz..
never mind..at least, you willing to try..
after that, dinner with chloe..
actually we plan to have our crab meal at kepong..
but we don't know how to go..
so cancel the plan and headed to SS2 have our dinner..
yeah yeah~~
me and chloe order a 'vietnam seafood rice'..
actually i forget the name already..
and my dinosaur order a fried kuey tiew..
he give me a try..
10years didn't eat already..
the taste are 'guai guai' for me..don't know why..
we order penang grill fish..
the taste can be improve..
other than that, they still order 'o jiak'..
i didn't eat at all due to EGG..
haha..
my dinosaur send me back home after dinner..
i'm happy that can fetch by him..
this is the first time that he fetch me back with BF identity..
thank a lots ya..
dinosaur, i really love you very much..
i hope that you'll appreacite me too..



-The End-

Wake Up

Jas Low..
you did a stupid mistake again..
the answer is quite disappointed..
sigh..
you know that you should not expect too much..
then why you go and ask some stupid question???
in the end, you get a stupid answer..
damn it..
all your friend are right..
you should not cry for him..
but can't control at all..
fucking insecure..no confident at all..
when you just wanna wake up???
wake up..
wake up..
wake up..
you should learn how to love yourself more than anyone..



-The End-

Bear In Mind

Mr. TAN..
please don't say you love me after you hurt me..
please don't ask for a chance after you make a mistake..
that's useless..
I hate lack of security..
this feeling is quite sux..
don't ask me what is insecure..
this is a question for you to figure it out..
I hate you're not the person who beside me when i need someone..
i know that everyone have their own life..
but, if you really care someone..
you'll stand by for him/her every hours, every minute and every second..
you try to ask yourself..
how many time you're beside me when i sick, down and moody?
the answer was shame..
I hate the message that you send me..
if you tired, i think that I'm the most tired..
you just sitting at there and say sorry to me..
you're never consider about my feeling, never think about me at all..
I hate that you're not allow me crying..
if i can control my tears, i hope that i won't cry for you ANYMORE..
I cry because I care..
you have no qualified to stop me because you're the person who make me cry..

Jas Low..
you're such a stupid in this world..
and you're the person i most hate in this world..
only masochist could ever love a narcissist..
those sux feeling should bear in mind..
and you're not allow to make the same mistake again..
you're not allow to love someone like that anymore..
and you should learn how to love yourself more than anyone..



-The End-

徘徊中

*容忍的人其实并不笨，只是宁可对自己残忍*

越过底线，失望浮现
为何我总是任性的让自己爱你那么多？
为何我总是学不会爱我自己多一点？

为何你总是让我觉得爱你是件很寂寞的事？

为何你总是让我觉得我只不过是你空闲时的那一个玩偶？

你给的
温柔太少，伤害太多
安慰太少，疲惫太多
分享太少，失望太多

心，痛的无法呼吸

泪，失控的往下流

我，还舍不得放手

请不要伤口造成后才做出无畏的弥补

其实，

我真的很想很想再一次地骗自己

但，却找不到一个好的借口让我回你的信息
你从不晓得那封信息对我的伤害

那一刻，我才知道你累了

同时，也发现原来这一切都是我的错

错在我太爱你了

-The End-

这样爱你对不对？

我这样爱你到底对不对 这问题问得我自已好累 我宁愿流泪 也不愿意后悔 可是我害怕终于还是要心碎 从未曾尝过真情的滋味 从未曾真正想伤害谁 如果是我把爱情想得太美 我应不应该放弃这最后的机会 如果真心付出是一种罪 我怀疑除了自已我还能够相信谁 如果失去真爱人们都无所谓 那么我又哪来那么多伤悲 如果真心付出是一种罪 我怀疑除了自已我还能相信谁 如果失去真爱人们都无所谓 那么我的心情又有谁能体会

-The End-

左边

Rating: ♥♥♥♥♥


总是忍不住寂寞掉下眼泪
你才会给安慰
担心短暂的晴天
随时都可能被阴狸收回

等待
有机会最坏也最甜美
我乐观却疲惫
因为太怕失去你
所以连快乐里都装满伤悲

你不曾发觉
你总是用右手牵着我
但是心却跳动在左边
你和我之间的遥远
永远隔着亲切
爱少的可怜

伸出右手想陪着你向前走
感受你爱我的心跳在左边
那么深深爱你的我
相信你会了解

总在埋怨过你的冷漠
之后又急着说抱歉
仿佛向疏远的你
乞求一点体贴
都是我不对

结果有可能最美也最可悲
我做好了准备
也许，太自由的你
心里面那个家，谁也不能回

我一直相信总有一天
你会用左手牵着我走向明天
未来很遥远，却会实现
心在同一边

就能够听见
你说的那句我爱你
你一定看的见


*keep repeat this song whole night.
for those people who lack of security..
this song express my feeling..
you used to hold me with your right hand but your heart beat are always on your left side
try to understand it..sigh!!!
but, i think that you won't know forever..




-The End-

Every Moment With U

'我在身边，怎么你看不见，别让我痴痴守候，看不到终点 '


my heart uncomfortable when i saw this..
i hope that i can apologize to you..
I'm sorry that i hurt you before..
but I'm sad too..
i know we can't like last time anymore..
but i wish that we still can chat with each other like friend..
at least, not a stranger..
actually, i very care about you..
you're important to me..
last time, now and i hope in future too..
you're the person who always listen to me, guide me, give advice to me when i lost and so on..
i believe you're a good bf for me if we could together..
in the end, i choose others..
what i can said is SORRY..
i very appreciate every moment that i spent with you..
miss the time we watch movie together..
miss the time we chat 'xin shi' at balcony..
miss the time you help me do my assignment..
miss the time you help me massage when i tired..
miss the time we used to sms with each other for whole night..
miss the time we yam cha with Fanny dear and Senior..
miss the time you help me celebrate my birthday..
miss the surprise you gave me in my birthday..
miss everything you have to done for me..
lastly, sorry and thank you...





-The End-

我听见有人叫你_宝贝

你问我为什么不再给你安慰
在寒风中漫步有家不回
好几天不见面也无所谓

你问我为什么把你的信退回
又把照片撕碎毫不后悔
你问我为了什么开始喝酒
而且每次都喝醉

不要说我做得不对
不要说你永远不会
因为我在无意间
听见有人叫你宝贝

不要说这是个误会
你不必在我面前流泪
因为我明明听见
有人叫你宝贝
你让他叫你宝贝

*this song meant a lots to me..
i keep played this song when we break up..
heart break when everytime hear it..
we are friends now..
thank for your everything and care..



-The End-