念

此刻，像个迷了路的孩子。
找不到出口。

毫无目的地走到这，
原以为放下心中的包袱。

才发现，
它，一直存在着。

而你，一直在我心里，
请允许我今天想你多一遍。






-The End-

走不进

为何我还有一丝丝的眷恋?
为何我不能潇洒一点?

我，
退不出也走不进你的世界。







-The End-

Fuck Off

bitch..who you think you are?you just nobody okay?
well, I'm satisfied with my life..
don't try and criticize me anymore..
I never deny that I'm not biosexual..
the thing between us are past tense..PAST TENSE
he treat you loyality right now..you should appreacite it..
I know you hate me..
but, you have no right to judge me or criticize me..
stop barking over there anymore..







-The End-

昨迟人

迟了听你细诉你曾迷途和那理想跟前途多么糊涂
迟了半秒约你晚饭漫步在那海滨公园一双足印如同共舞
这恋爱的信徒，再一次失去爱神怜悯
一次要被遗下在半途

迟了送上雨伞雨仍毛毛谁与你竟早潜逃终于徒劳
迟了爱你替你抹掉问号
迟了抱紧双手差点经已同行共老
这恋爱的旅途，我想要得到却未拾到多么糟
可给我为你填补

昨日像得到迟来无去路
给你与某人在长夜共抱
只懂得安慰或时候未到
天未亮都需要为你虚耗

陪我细诉和我抱抱
为何天空一个城堡
仰望却无法触到盖着被铺
彷似终得到安土笑着投入你(的)怀抱*

迟了吻你两片软唇红红而那眼睛都红红心中重重
迟了疼你与你抱着做梦直到昨天分手只懂一个呆呆目送
今天我一个人再一次失去爱神护荫
今天他当天你如何残忍

昨日像得到迟来无去路
给你与某人在长夜共抱
只懂得安慰或时候未到
天未亮都需要为你虚耗

陪我细诉和我抱抱
为何天空一个城堡
仰望却无法触到盖着被铺
彷似终得到安土笑着投入你(的)怀抱*

我在昨日为何迟未说出心中想告诉你那些话
那份说话为何留待了他细心听他讲一百遍
但已丑化，心已火化

昨日像得到迟来无去路
给你与某人在长夜共抱
只懂得安慰或时候未到
当日或今日亦一样残酷

陪我细诉和我抱抱
为何天空一个城堡
仰望却无法触到盖着被铺
彷似终得到安土笑着投入你(的)怀抱*

我会祝福你安好快乐投入那些怀抱





*awesome, leng song by Andy Hui*







-The End-

My Happiness

Many people would like to ask me 'what is my definition of happiness???'
hmm..normally I will refuse to answer it..
I don think I have the qualified to answer this question because my relationship are not stable yet..
we always argue due to some stupid matter..
but, these few days....this question keep replay in my head..
why uhh?i have no idea at all..
finally, i get my answer...
TADAH!!!!

that is can eat steamboat with someone who special for me..
I love steamboat because got my favorite-fish-ball..BLEK~

and another my favorite-taufu fa

lastly, is hold my hand to see sun rise in everyday..

but don think can make it everyday because i love to sleeping..

maybe sun set will do..LOL~

-The End-

Squeezing

it is 3am again but I'm still awake..
I keep think a lots of thing..
it's pushing my mind and squeezing it..
our gap are getting far and farer..
I think it's time I should make a wisely decision..
things are changing and changing include both of us..
maybe you start working right now..
we have differrent concept and different opinion..
I found that you getting mature but i still remain the same..
I'm sorry that I couldn't be someone perfect for you..
just give both of us some time to think what we really need and want?








-The End-

可以不爱了

把窗户偷偷都打开
让阳光统统照进来
让风放肆地吹散我身上的尘埃

把你的过去变腐坏
把你的溺爱藏起来
把你的所有都搬到我房间里来

现在是三点钟
你应该还没醒呢
这有点刺眼的光线会不会打扰你呢？

梦不会实现了
我应该要醒了
我不该只懂得配和
你习惯短暂的温热

我努力要自己避开和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯
住在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己
有一个善良的交代

我努力要自己不看你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯
得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人吞噬着自己的能耐
到最后我可以不爱了
你却说舍不得

避开你
欲走还留的眼睛
我要我忍住再一次抱你
躲开你
转身以后的消息
这一次我可以

我努力要自己避开和你曾走过的地带
但是又和不舍拉扯
住在我快乐的界外
我何尝不是一个人来决定爱的延长赛
奈何总是勉强对自己
有一个善良的交代

我努力要自己不看你给我的伤心地带
但是又和失去拉扯
得到的全都是意外
到现在还是一个人吞噬着自己的能耐
到最后我可以不爱了
你却说舍不得

你可以不爱了
别说舍不得




*my feeling, your song*





-The End-

Kind of Sickness

3pm lying on my lovely bed but i fall asleep in 8am..
but, awake around 9am..I was shocked when saw the time..
eventually, I slept around 9.30am until 12.30pm..
4hours for sleeping..another 20hours functioning..
I'm freaking tired right now..
I think..I guess..
my insomnia coming back again!!!
insomnia is kind of sickness..
gotta kill by insomnia soon and sooner..
I need sleeping tablet desperately..
how I wish i could sleep forever..
maybe this is the only way can release from painful and hurt..
now I'm someone without soul..









-The End-

整理

漫长的夜晚，
又再一次地被寂寞侵蚀。

看着镜里的自己，
却挤不出一个属于自己的笑。

像个没有灵魂的身躯，
失去自我，失去平衡感。

这一次，
我尝试说服自己原谅。

我找不到一个究竟，
为何我们会这样？

所以，
我很坚决地与世界断绝联系。

请原谅我，
我真的需要一些时间来整理我的思绪。

请让我冷静，好吗？







-The End-

Backward

How i wish i could step off this kind of situation?
but, memories keep drag me backward..
what should i do right now?





-The End-

Break

In the middle night, i should sleeping right now..
but i fail to get into dream world..
insomnia i think..my mind was blank..
situation today ever happened on me before i broke up with my ex..
maybe things are changing and changing include both of us..
I was tired..I need break seriously..
I should concentrate on my study as well..
oversea next year..gambateh ya..






-The End-

Just Leave Me Alone

no one can understand my feeling at that moment..
i cry like a baby while I'm driving..
sigh~

our problems,
repeat and repeat..
again and again..

we ever,
tried and tried..

finally we,
tired and tired..
struggle and struggle..

I know is my fault, is my problem..
I'm not mature enough..
I got my bad temper..

I need to calm down and make up my mind..
so, please leave me alone..

I'm serious in this time..







-The End-

厮守

我不确定他是否就是那位对的人？
我只懂他是个肯用心了解我的人。

他，从没让我伤心难过。
与他相处，没有压力，只有欢笑声。

但，
我情愿与他保持友达以上，恋人未满的关系。
总好过有天我们需要承担失去对方的痛苦。

也只有这样，
我们才能与对方厮守一辈子。

我只能说我们输了，真的输了，
我们输给了时间，输给了缘分。






-The End-

Wish List Again

I just found that still got few more wishes haven't mention it on my previous article..
yeah~pretty greedy right?
11. I want this I want this..is RED color..
but, i don't think i will get it home because i got my DELL lappy..
just the color gains my attention..BLEK~


12. I wish to get a digital camera in this year..
I wanna capture all the best thing which surround me..
well, Canon always is the best choices for me..Sony, I'm sorry ya..
spot Canon IXUS 200 IS..that is touch screen..yeah~
what color should i buy leh?I wanna get a RED digital camera..
but, too bad..this model no RED color..sad nia..
silver is too common..i think i will get purple or gold..

13. I wish i can get a body art..
no doubt, that is tattoo..wohOOoo~
but, i have no idea what and where i should ink..
i wanna ink something which related with YOU..





-The End-

(它)我的爱情观

它，只会静悄悄地侵袭，却不会静悄悄地离开。

它，不像一般的游戏，
它，没有游戏规则，
它，没有一定的方式，
它，也没有所谓的道德观念。

它，让人们忠于感觉，
它，让人们失去理智。

它，成为人们的生活调剂品，
它，曾为人们带来幸福快乐，
它，丰富了人们的人生，
它，也为人们的人生留下了许多过客的脚印和回忆。

同时间，

它，让人们背负遗憾，
它，让人们受尽了委屈，
它，让人们伤心难过，

其实，
它，需要缘分与时间的配合。

只有，在对的时间遇上对的两个灵魂，
才有资格搭上通往幸福的车站。

在我的字典里，
我称 ‘它’ 为

‘爱情’

-The End-

2010 Wish List

Tadah~2010 coming..what a brand new year..
i wish all my friends healthy and happy always..
all the best ya..here is my wish list..
1. I want get them home as my collection..
Marc Jocob Daisy, Flora by Gucci and Hugo Boss Orange..
2. I wish can complete my degree as soon as possible..
because i don't wish take money from my family anymore..
i want earn money myself..
wish i could complete my degree with flying color..

3. I wish can get my Gucci 'Joy'..
although i saw many peoples are carry it around include my friends too..
but, i don't care..BLEK~

4. Shopping is an activities girls always do..
so, I wanna shopping like nobody business..
and I wanna my silly be my shopping partner..

5. I wanna to be more and more girlish..
try and get more dresses for myself because silly would like girl with dress..

6. I wanna lose few more KGsssssssssss..
Lena Fuji, i love her body figure..she is HOT like chili..
gambateh ya..


7. I wanna earn more and more money as I can..
hehe..Earn More, Spend More......

8. I wanna curl my hair?
isn't this length enough for it?
but some of my friend prefer i with straight hair..
STRAIGHT OR CURL?

9. I wanna pamper myself..so, I need a vacation when holiday..
seaside?pulau perhentian?phuket?or bangkok?

Lastly, I wanna stay with my dino darling..teeheeeee^^














-The End-

影子

他，就像我的影子，
他，了解我，体谅我，
他，哄我，听我倾诉，
但，我们相遇在错的时间。

而，我不能给他任何东西，
就，连承偌我也给不起，
最后，却只留下这一句 ‘对不起’。

或许，我们会有遗憾，
而责备时间对我们开的玩笑。

可是，
我们确实的被时间打败了。







-The End-

其实我不快乐

离别你不经异地 想工作暗天暗地
直到可困倦沉睡 不挂念你
情愿我呼天叫地 总好过这么顾忌
害怕走往日场地 倘碰著你会撑不起

和谁在一起都用来共你相比
就算了不起只可做到我知己
谁若寄望替代你最尾都要放弃 只能退避

和谁在一起很自然共你相比
就算游戏笑著也未快乐得起
难道我在寄望有天可失忆 找到转机

其实我很不快乐 想躲进暗黑街角
泪尽可痛快地流落 不知哪日会对爱再有感觉

和谁在一起都用来共你相比
就算了不起只可做到我知己
谁若寄望替代你最尾都要放弃 只好退避

和谁在一起很自然共你相比
就算游戏笑著也未快乐得起
难道我在寄望有天可失忆 找到转机

难道我在寄望有天可失忆
难道这份记念如像空气，欠缺就会死



what a nice song~
she very pretty..i think every guys must can't resist her..
LOL..





The End-

Fragrance

Marc Jocobs Daisy

Flora by Gucci

Hugo Boss Orange

I need a fragrance desperately..
but, I wish these 3 fragrance as my collection..
I want....




I want.........











I want..............................









-The End-

Shop Again~

my new sandal

my wound

Guess's watch

our choice for our dinner- Fong Lye

woo~

his chicken

my rice

silly's him

i'm cute..LOL

dino darling

snap snap snap*

chinese tea

we could finished it

12/01/2010, another shopping day again~
we ponteng class and working just for meet each other..
wohOooooo~
he come my house yesterday..
his first time..come my house and sleep on my bed..
i love it..i can't forget his impression when he were slept on my bed..
he just too cute..love him very much..
afterward, we headed to Mid Valley..
we shopping again..yeah~
i love this very much..
before start our shopping, we try to get something for our stomach..
so, we decided had our dinner at Fong Lye since we never try this before..
he ordered a chicken meal, and i ordered a fish meal for myself..
we were satisfied..the steam fish super nice..no bone..good~
we drink our chinese tea after meal..i forget the name..
it's bitter but quite nice also..

we start our shopping after it..
first station is adidas..
he get his jersey tee at Adidas..is green-his favorite color..
and he get a red shirt at Top Shop..lolx..
i get my two cloth at Zara and a sandal...
i can't believe myself bought a dress because of him..
i know he would love girl in dress and short..LOL
i was happy yesterday because he accompany me shopping..
am i dreaming?
gosh~unbelievable..
darling, keep it on..
i wanna you be my best shopping partner..





-The End-