Shivering

I should not give a fuck on his hp.

out of nowhere why will I jealous when he call another girl 'baby' even though the girl is his girl's friend.

maybe its normal for him because I also will call my friend as dear too.

I stay calm, pretend like nothing happen.

In fact, my heart is bleeding.

my heart was shivering, I don't know what can I do at that moment.

I told myself that I left seven weeks.

I should do everything to fix our relationship, our love.

pull the stupid ego aside even it's hard for me.

pretend nothing happen doesn't mean that I don't love him anymore.

so sorry about that, I'm not generous at all.

we were not happy today because I guess my tone towards on him was cold.

but, he never give a fuck on it, let's clap.

actually, I'm a person who soft-hearted.

I need a bf who care me, concern me, and love me.

the problem is you never ask or give a damn on it.

What can I said? I think nothing better than 'well done'.

maybe the feeling fading?maybe we were not lovely like previous?

I felt like losing you.

I rather you told me something that hurt me instead of I waiting for your answer.

you should know, my time is precious.

of course, you may dump me if you do want.

otherwise, please appreciate me, hold me tight as you can.

I just want us to be happy, I want us to be lovely couple in these only seven weeks.

This is what can I do for you, the only thing. me guess.

-The End-

Something Inside

Everyone thought we are a lovely couple include myself.

how were we did?what should we do for fix it well?

I know you do want a long term relationship and I'm so sorry about that.

I got no confident to maintain it.

I hate argue, I afraid of quarrel.

why you do not know me well or try a little hard to understand me with your heart?

Seven weeks left.

as I always said, nobody can predict what will happen in the next second.

therefore, I try my best to play a girlfriend's role in this seven weeks.

I want to be with you in this only seven weeks we have.

I want to go somewhere with you that I wish to go, eat something with you that I wanna craving, playing around with you. Yes, only you.

I hope we can appreciate the time we left.

your promise in my head still, obviously your action tell me different story.

you know, I hate those people who broke promise like they never care and you did it again and again.

and you will never know the scar you left in my heart =(

and yes, I lose the game.

I'm loser =(

-The End-

泪

我....想去没有泪水的地方

-The End-

I will

yeah, we are back..

thank for you loving me..

and I will try to change myself..

give me some time..I believe that I can do it..

-The End-

Dead Man

Now I just like a dead man without soul..

I can't ever breathe well as I always did..

something will end soon..maybe real soon, who knows?

LOVE is not looking the perfect one but looking for someone who suitable..

LOVE is fragile, I couldn't hold it whenever I want..

everything doesn't go in the right track..

I couldn't feel myself..

How great if I'm a numb?

-The End-

Say NO to Clumsiness & Laziness

recently I was busy for my Uni stuff..

I was disappointed once I get my transcript.

I hope I can score well.

I know only result just can let my parents be proud of me.

so, gambateh yong yong.

for yourself and daddy mummy as well.

I will oversea after 3months once I get confirmation.

*worry-ing*

now, I started worry about my relationship.

I know that I'm stupid but I do care this relationship.

I put all my effort, my love and my care to invest in this relationship.

I really hope that we can get a happy ending.

in relationship> engaged> marriage

this is desire of every girls right?

even I have no confident in marriage due to some reason.

no matter how, I have to be strong and tough enough because I don't hope my boy worry about me.

so now, I have to say NO to my clumsiness and my laziness.

bed time.

-The End-

Peanut

I have to note the feeling and I need to..

well, I saw her when I working as flyer girl at Bukit Bintang..

I tried to move off my sight and put myself on a poker face..

well, she's not hot as he said.

*sorry to say that, as you know my taste was too good*

The part I was mad about,

Women, I knew you saw me too and please don't pretend you're not.

who are you trying to cheating on? me or yourself?

or you wanna to say my friend trying to lie on me? *she did ><"*

or maybe I was just the way too dumb for choose to believe them * I'm so sorry, my fault*

she said my friends got the wrong messages. *my poor friends, you guys seriously need a spec*

Next, the most ridiculous thing happened, we were argue about it..

*well done for lovely couple*

apparently, your attitude's problem, okay?

she doesn't worth my time to mad about actually and you should know that a peanut always just a nuts..

yuck, your taste were bad. I mean real bad, not kidding.

please trying to convince me that she's prettier than me.

TRUTH always UGLY and I just being honest.

honest kids always hate by people if they choose to live in denial.

what a biggest joke in this year..thank you and I appreciated~

-The End-

Happy 2nd anniversary

Our Day 1120, means we been together another 365days with each other again..

darling, happy 2nd anniversary to you..

we officially 2years, again, Happy Our Day

let's talk about the our day's eve and what happen on the actual date..

we had a dinner at Hutong Foodcourt @ LOT 10

he ordered hamburger

I got my sausage

yummy yummy~

apa muka ni?

four of us..love to spend my time with you guys~

1120, darling fetch me after i finish packed everything ^^

we went Tien Hou Temple for pray pray

afterward, we off to 1U for sticker picture

too bad, close already

I think now it's hard for us to take sticker picture already

kinda regret that I never ask you take with me

T__________________T

but, he bought a pair of shoe and I get a top from ZARA

dinner time, Jarrod & Rawlins

what a nice place!!!

I just simply love the atmosphere, food and everything

unique interior design ♥

comfortable and cosy

thanks darling for brought me here

muackz~

ice lemon tea always my choice

it's time to order

see, he is so lovely♥

he love his torch more than me =(

back bacon, smoked cheese basic, and spicy chili

smoked cheese basic, dynamic chicken and bla bla bla (forget the name already)

I love this, mushroom cheese♥

he's MINE

that's all for our dinner

backed home after dinner, it's simple but I like it

as long as can be with you, everything will be perfect

I still remember 2years ago, we decided to share our love with each other

of course, there have a lots of happiness, joyful, sadness, laughter, tears and so on

but, we still hold each other tightly

because we ever promised each other will not simply break up

I will not forget a kiss you gave me

A kiss important and meant a lots for me

A kiss turn my life to colorful, warm and happiness

and now, TA-DAH~2years already..

There have many first time between us still

December, we went look out point for first time

woo~time flies, gonna one year we never go there already

a guy who always looking for me while I was working and willing be my private chauffeur

He said he is Mr. Strong

January, first time we went Victoria Station for Edren's bash day

oh ya, now my silly no longer a UNI student, he is an engineer

I ever thought that he has no time to accompany me like last time he did

but, the truth is we would appreciate the moment we can spend with each other

?same face?

first time went Mont Kiara for make an appointment for our pre-valentine dinner @ Tenji

I just simply love my hair's color

first time have a dine in Fong Lye @ The Garden

my silly look great in RED

my favorite color

♥

we used to kiss each other

he is mine♥

I love he can mingle with my friendsss

February, first time you followed me back seremban

I still remember that your expression that you were nervous like a dumb ass when had a dinner with my family *first time*

and now, we gain acknowledge by them

♥

guess where are we?

our favorite, Sushi Zanmai

March, we went IKEA for budget budget

in the end, we did nothing

but, still had a lots of fun

you love IKEA's curry puff and I love ice cream

♥ IKEA

my dino darling's convo

his big day, a day meant a lots for him

because he officially graduated

first picture with his daddy and mummy

see, my boy so silly and happy

congraz, darling

first time hang out with his siblings and cousins

I will try my best to spend more time with them

I remember this day we had argument =(

sometimes, we used to be crazy like this

319, we got our little baby RED

he loves GREEN

first time cooked for him

I thought I will fail to do it

never try, never know

I make it and he loves the dish I cooked too

I know that it's might not the perfect dinner but I prepared it with my love

hope you like it

first time starbucks with you @ Genting

April, he brought me to get a birthday cake for my mummy

first time he joined my family birthday celebration

first time satay @ Kajang

super duper yummy yummy

no people can separate us

no people can change us

no people can judge us

I love the way we are

we caught a movie @ Wangsa Walk

our 500days

first time went Hutong @ Lot 10

May, we went melacca when our one and half year

I just simply love this historical place

aiyerrrrr, see that skinny monkey!!!!

the best chicken rice ball with my lovely darling

first time @ Zai Talk

tiger always his best choice

but I love wine still

first time went gym with darling and his bestie, Jack

Italianies with you and my cousin

casual look of us, and I ♥ it

June, 620 first time we went broga hill

we had a argument before this day =(

some misunderstand happened

*sob sob*

see, your slimmy arm

now, you got your muscle♥

July, our 600days♥

August, our lovely month

your birthday celebration

sorry that I couldn't gave you a memorable birthday

and you know, my birthday will be very perfect as long as you be with me

September, first time we went vincci @ Farenheit 88

a new shopping mall but there got nothing to shop

916, malaysia day

we went genting due to KL weather was killing us

darling, I want take sticker pic with you =(

I hope I'm not only in your eye but in your ♥

October, we gonna prepare for swimming as well

I love to swimming with you, darling ♥

my second time cooked for you and my siblings

and I did it again

plus, darling cooked and washed with me

Thanks You

101010, we spent our time with each other like we always do

love in the air as long as the person who beside me is YOU

November, 1120 our day

*from my bottom heart*

20112008

the day we decided to share our love with each other.

the day my life start changed from that moment because I allowed a stranger join my life.

time flies, although it's 2years ago, for me, it's just like happened on yesterday.

I couldn't forget the first kiss you gave, the way you hug me, the beating of my heart with speedy.

In these 2 years, we surround by happiness, blissful, joyful, sadness, argument and disappointment.

but, it's glad that we are still hold each other tightly until now.

Darling, is you.

you are the strength for me to stay strong and tough and prove me what love is.

you never give up b when b did some mistake.

you never leave b when b lied on you.

you console me when b unhappy. *sometime*

you tried to make me smile when I was down.

you quit to 'do sales' for b. *but you shisha now, LOL*

you joined gym for give b a dream man.

you work hard just for give me a dream house.

what you did for b, b really know it and I appreciate it very much..

dar always did something just for satisfied b.

but, b always complaint and complaint.

darling, I'm so sorry about that.

perhaps I'm not a good girlfriend but a 'cute' girlfriend.

darling, I really very very love you.

I really wish that you're my hubby in future.

the one who share a King size bed with me.

the one who live with me and share every single thing with me in future.

as we know, we may not predict what will be happen on tomorrow or in future.

no matter how, I still heart you and appreciate every moment that can spend with you.

seriously, I really have to thank god that let me met you and have a chance to share my love with you.

words cannot describe my love to you.

I will try my best to hold and maintain our love as we ever promised each other last time.

darling, I know that you have no confident to deal with long distance relationship and me too..

I can't imagine my life without you.

I afraid that I can't get used to the life without you beside me.

for me, you're not just a boyfriend for me anymore yet my best friend, my listener, my advisor when I was struggle, my shopping partner ever, and my lovely family member.

I understand that long distance always rely on words, skype, computer or BBM.

maybe those intangible tools will not give us a sense of security.

B promise, I will always update my news for you and dar too okie?

I willing to do anything for our love.

darling, let's try our best okie?

I know this is the most toughest obstacles for us.

trust me, nothing can separate us as long as we have faith on our love.

by the way, I love you so much.

I always miss you once you are not beside me.

see, I miss you now.

Lastly, Happy Our Day and Happy 2nd Anniversary.

muackz muackz muackz~

-The End-