Once a Upon Time

I'm freaking moody right now..
Alex will be depart on August and JR will be depart on September..
that means all my gang members are oversea for further studies..
leave me alone in Malaysia..pity me..
i also wanna oversea..I'm the last..waiting for me ya..
times pass by so fast, now all of us are young adult..
I'm freaking miss our old days seriously..
miss the times that all of us went for vacation when school holidays..
miss the times we drink beers from midnight until sunrise in PD, Langkawi and Redang..
miss the times we always 'keng sam si' in playground..
miss the times we have steamboat..
miss the times we clubbing together..
miss the times we swimming in Carven's condo every sunday..
miss the times we sing k after school..
miss the times we tuition together..
miss the times we hang out together..
miss the times we yam cha together..
miss the times we learn those bad habits..lolx
and bla bla bla..
we share happiness and sadness with each others..
we giving console, concern, care, advice, support each others..
we grow, we learn, we support each others all the way..
when we just can meet each other again?

Luke, Ken, Alex, JR, Carven, Hao Lou, May, E-lyn and Eleven..
i would like to tell you guys..
thanks for you guys always pampered me like a kids..
leads me when i lost my way..
giving a help hand when i needs help..
entertain me when i moody..
bring me out when i was bored..
encourage me when i was lost confident..
take care of me when i was sick..
pay a visit to me when i in the jail(NS)..
express some food for me when i went for NS..
lend shoulder for me when i crying..
do those silly things or act some silly pose for gains my smile..
always gave me a surprise, warm, unforgettable and touch birthday party..
pampered me and support me all the way..
no matter how, you guys still remain the same in my heart..
as Luke said: 'once a bitch, forever a bitch'..haha..
your reputation gonna ruin by me..
by the way,
i wish you guys get a brighter future and achieve your dreams as soon as possible ..
gambateh ya..
don't forget buy me Gucci or LV bag ya..






-The End-

A Simple Day For Us

JK Darling

woke up in a pretty morning due to collect my gowns for convo..
wohoo~i was happy leh..
can't waiting for that day..
oh my god~some more, darling has to meets my parents..
he was freaking nervous..same as me..
off to station one for our breakfast with my classmates after collected our gowns..
long time didn't saw them, they still crazy like previous..
once is B5, forever is B5(07/09)..B5 students never normal..
you all should believe and agree with this..
fetched darling after his class finished..
then, went TBR have chicken rices for theirs' breakfast..
i was so so sleepy..i could sleep on the spot once i saw a bed at that moment..i swear..
backed darling's house for sleeping hours..
unfortunately, no power supply due to they haven't clear the bill..
too bad!!!i couldn't sleep without fan..
so, we planned to sing k..
headed to Sg Wang's green box after bill payment..
both of us not in a good condition..maybe too tired or what..
but, i still enjoyed with my darling..
5pm-9pm, it's just cost us RM20.70..
affordable right?
dinner time, we went same place again..
no doubt, curry chu cheong fun is the best choice for us because we felt bored about those stalls around setapak area..
OMG~
i'm wasted a curry chu cheong fun..
i couldn't finished it due to i have no appetite..sighhhHhhhHhh~
backed home afterward..
home sweet home..






-The End-

Bad Day

Well, i had a bad day today..
I'm stuck in federal highway while i went for working today..
i was started nervous when i gonna been late..
now i just knew that you are the first person appear in my mind when i was nervous..
i keep telling myself..everything will be fine..
after working, you will get a big hug or comfort from him..
meanwhile, his message are coming..
he told me that: baby, i had a bad day again. hmm. you got late a not?
i was down and moody once i saw this because i knew that he must miss the bus..
how come the bus become so punctual this time?
normally the bus always late, always need my darling waiting..i wonder why they so punctual this time uhh?
it's like drama series's scene..OMG..how come?
i was freaking guilty when I'm late..
now, i wanna apologize to my agent, sorry ya..
luckily, the dealer haven't arrive..
i was surprised when i saw cherlene and viely..
wohoo~working with them again..
ours' job scope just distribute flyer and convey the information about MTV world stage concert live in Malaysia..
3pm, backed home but federal highway still got a bit jam..
it's makes me freaking annoying..
washing my car because i got pass by the petrol station..
my 'xiao hong' very leng zai now..
get home around 4pm..damn it..
my JK darling on the way back KL now..
wohoo~i can't wait to meet him tomorrow..
i wanna get a big hug from him..miss you so much..

p/s: i need you so much, darling♥

-The End-

Useless's Me

I'm sorry about that..
i felt bad and guilty when you treat me frigidly..
i admitted that is my fault and i never deny it..
i knew that i should not hang out with him..
but he was the one who always accompany me when i was down or moody..
i don't know that he will told me that kind of thing..
if i knew, i won't go out with him..i swear..
i don't know why that you wanna keep you feeling in your heart..
you can scold me or angry me..
please don't act like nothing..it's make me feel so..
don know how to describe my feeling right now..
i have a lots of question when we sms today..
darling, I'm stupid, i can't read your mind..
try to let me know your feeling next time okay?
please don't heal your mood yourself next time..
i understand that you are trying to avoid some argument between us..
you are so sweet, darling..i knew that you are try to protect our relationship..
i don't know what in your mind if you didn't told..
let me know once i did wrong..
actually, i would like to settle all the thing before we chat properly..
we have no secret between on each other, right?

and,

i hate that you have no confident on me..
it's fucking me down once i read your message..
now i only know there have no 100% between us..i mean trust..
i thought u will know me well..i hate my bf don't believe me..
there have no point if a couple lack of belief..
I'm such a useless girlfriend...
because i can't earn understanding and belief from you..
JAS LOW,

you are fucking useless

*Happy8monthsTogether*

-The End-

KDU

Our Hp's wallpaper

Maxx and Me

today, i'm late again..maxx said will fetch me at 12pm but i woke up around 11.30..
LOL, that's me..no choice..
shower after woke up, and dress up myself with speedy..
so, maxx picked me around 1.30pm..
off to KDU college for further information about my bachelor degree..but the registration fees are killing me when i knew it..it's cost me 550bucks..oh gosh!!!
but, i haven't pay yet..have to waiting for the Murdoch University reply..
just can waiting and waiting..
headed to ikea after our lunch, we keep play over there like nobody business..
*silly us*
we bought something before we leave..that's ABC's cookie..yum yum~~
back home afterward..
after shower, received JR's call..he said that he and Alex gonna arrive my house within 10mintutes..
can you tell me early next time?always last minute..
and, can you give me some time for dress up myself?
we go yulek have our tom yam dinner..i love the tom yam soup..
afterward, we go station one for beer..
JR keep smoking over there since that day he broke up with mun yi..heartache when i saw that..sigh!!!
are you forget that you ever promised me that you will quit?
i hope you will stop this..that is our promise..
and, stop pretend nothing front of me..i'm your buddy, your best friend..
you thought you could cheat me?
i know what you are thinking of but please don't have this kind of thinking..please don't..
i won't leave my friends alone when they are face those problem..
anyway, do take good care of yourself..
don't forget you ever promised wanna take care of me..
so, you better take good care first..
cheer up ya..buddy..

today, i get my pc fair job..work as apple promoter..wohoo~
i'm happy when i received CK's call..boss ever promised treat us haagen daz..but, too bad that i can't complete those three days due to i have another job..
i just realized that i have to working start from 20/7-21/7, 28/7-29/7, 31/7-7/8
luciky, 30th is off..if not, i afraid i will get mad..1st-2nd of aug is pc fair job..
although i will be tired, but i can't say NO to money..no choice, i can't live without money..
actually not bad, can earn money..not need stay at home everyday like useless..
earn more, spent more..wohoo~






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如果我变成回忆

累了 照惯例努力清醒着
也照惯例想你了
好怕一放心睡了
心跳在梦中不听话的就停止了

听着 呼吸像浪潮拍动着
越美丽越让我忐忑
我还能珍惜什么
如果我连自己的脉搏都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你 人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他陪你我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢
哪一刻是最后一刻
想把你紧紧抱着
可知你是我生命中的最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命
留下你错愕哭泣
我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你
想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行
我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运
没机会白着头发 蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽
漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈
若有人可以让他给你

如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不争气
顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里每一寸缝隙
连累依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去
这样不公平请你尽力 把我忘记

what a nice song attach with a meaningful lyric..
touching**
if i leave one day, i hope you guys won't forget me..
my joke,

my stupid face,
my voice,
my smile,
and my everything..

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He's Back

no doubt, he backed his hometown already..I think that he sit in bus with comfortably right now..i miss him like crazy because we didn't meet each other since Saturday..
i feel bad can't meet him before he backed hometown due to my car's maintenance..
sigh!!!
i really can't live without car..luckily i got friend willing be my driver..
thank for you guys ya..touching**
by the way, take good care ya..darling..
no hug for any gals..
drink more water..
reduce your sales..
enjoy your hometown's life ya..
lastly, must miss me..

p/s: sat is my lao po convo..can't waiting for this..fish's daddy allow she go with me..wohoo~

-The End-

Yesterday

BEFORE

AFTER

finally and finally, i have a hair cut for myself..
actually i wanna trim my fringe long long time ago due to my dino not very like i trim my fringe, so i try to leave it long..he said like a kid..sad nia..
in the end, i can't stand it anymore because it was like block my sight..
wohoo~my fringe are coming back and nothing can block my sight anymore..
took my car for repair after hair cut..they all said i look like kid?
JR and Alex also said like that when they came my house..
oh my god!!!am i?


yesterday, i made a decision..
i choose to attend my lao po's convo although i wish to back penang with my little dino..
Lao Po, i also wanna thank you..love you so so much..
i know you hope i can back with him because you are not willing to see me worry too much when he are not around me..
but, your convo just got one time in your life..i afraid i will regret in future if i miss it..
no matter how, i wish i can attend because you are my lovely girl..
meanwhile, i wanna apologize to my dino..sorry that i can't back with you..
and thank for you understanding and considerate..I'm happy that you are so so understanding..
i just knew that you have a bunch of plans..
actually I'm happy and touching once you told me that you have many plans with me..
you lets me felt happiness..OH MY GOD~
the feeling are coming back..have a thousand years didn't have this feeling already..
i don't know how to describe the feeling..
promise me, hold me tight if you really love me..
i won't simply let you go..i will try my best to maintain our relationship..
Tan Tien How,

" I LOVE YOU "

*你让我再一次相信永远*

-The End-

Friend?or Lover?

VIP- my lovely lao po, April Cheong

VIP- my darling, JK Tan

Oh My God!!!
well, i have no idea right now..
next Saturday is my lovely lao po's convo..
but JK Tan will be back his hometown on Wednesday..
i wish to back with him because i know he maybe will have a long time can't back his hometown..
at the same time, i also wish i can attend my lao po's convo..
i know that day is a meaningful day for her..
two of them are my bf and VIP..
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!
what should i choose???
how i gonna to choose???
why i always face this kind of shit thing???
anyone can tell me???


i need



an

ANSWER!!!!

-The End-

Dessert Day

hahahahahahaha!!!
well, i have a sweet date with my little dino today..
headed to TBR find darling after shower..
fetched him and his friends go campus due to they have to hand up theirs assignment..
afterward, back home shower and dress up himself..
we booked 5pm k room..
wohoo!!!actually i love to sing k with my bf..
but all my ex not very interest of this..
finally, i get a bf who love sing k..YEAH!!!
we get a biggest room for two person today..
after one and half hours, they request us change to a smallest room..
OMG**both of us can't accept AT ALL..
because it's TOO SMALL..sigh~~
off to kepong have dessert after fetched Jack and his gf, Yee Ai..
very happy nia..
i miss my mango pudding so so much..
saw Maxx and secondary's school friend over there..
really have a thousand years never meet them already..
i ordered a mango noodles shared with dino..
and jack ordered a 'yong zi gam loo' shared with yee ai..
very nice la..i very miss my mango noodles..
missing**
back home after dessert..
that all for today..



-The End-

游鴻明

Ice Age 3

yesterday went mid valley for this movie..
some more, we bought 3D version tickets..
RM35 for two person..
expensive?i have no idea..hehe*
the glasses is so big..
the 3D was so real..but got a bit bored after half an hour..
no choice, my Dino wanna watch it..
Friday is your turn to accompany me watch my movie..
Dance Subaru..I'm coming..




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Final Destination 4

Oh My God*
I'm exciting after this trailer..i waiting for this movie 3 years already..
sommore is digital 3-D..
i really can't wait anymore..
august august august..
fast fast come la..
my little dino, you must watch with me..you can't run ya..
i never ever watched this movie with my bf in cinema before..
exciting now..wohoo~




-The End-

The Truth

well, I'm kinda moody because i knew something.
maybe i knew too much about it.
it's kinda affected my mood.
for me, humans are kind of species that most complicated in this world.
i admitted that i believe in someone easily.
is that my fault also?
i thought once you treat people with your most sincere heart, they will treat you in the same way too.
in the end, this is what i get.
should i wake up?
what i can said is..

I'm fucking disappointed when I knew the truth

-The End-

222Days

last day of June..our 222days..
argument happen again..
maybe you are right..
our style not match at all..
i couldn't give what you want..
and you couldn't give what i want..
actually, i thought you will not treat me like my ex..
when you leave me alone over there..
the feeling are coming back..
full of fear and helpless..
hate this feel very very much..
I'm sorry that i have no confident on our love at this moment..
please give me some time to build it up..
i wanna ask you..
are you happy when together with you???
do you wanna continue???
my heart keep bleeding when you treat me like this..
i thought you will not like this..
but you did it..it's torn my heart..
totally speechless this time..
despite we act like nothing happen after this..
but you leave me a scar in my bottom heart..
please give me some time..
i need calm down right now..




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